I have a strong will- there is no doubt about it. I have heard time after time from people in my life about "my strong will". Most of it wasn't put in a very positive way yet even so it was truth.
I never put much thought into what makes one strong. Physically strong, mentally strong, emotionally strong & strong willed. I can claim all of those but not at all times. In fact there have been times when being strong consisted of remaining alive- drawing breath- not much more.
I dont give up easily. I never have and most likely never will. When I have felt beaten to the point of giving up, I did the unthinkable. I admit it though not very proud of it. G-d had other plans than allowing me to end something HE alone had specific plans for. So I am still here and I am glad.
This strong will I possess has been the driving force of my accomplishments, my growth and my relationships. Having a strong will combined with lifes experiences (good ones and not so good ones) has made life challenging in ways I would not have considered. Defiance.
From early childhood, I was considered defiant and rebellious by my parents. In their mind that may have been but in my own defense, I was only seeking respect and unconditional love. As a young child, I had little exposure to either. During my childhood there were opportunities from extended family members, school teachers and neighbors who loved me and respected me. In fact, just enough that I gleaned such was possible.
Reflecting over the last 10 years, choices and decisions have matured my "strong will". Most who know me can testify to my unwavering will- to get things accomplished- to make life better- to make a difference. I thank G-d that HE gave me a free will. Its my hope I wont disappoint HIM.
..........................there is a WAY.
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