So much has occured since the past post in 2012.  The journey has taken several twists and turns to find my current vista point.  I can honestly say that the experiences, trials and tribualtions in the two unrecorded years have positivly directed me to this beautiful place. Yes I do consider this place  beautiful as  I am able to explore finding comfort and self acceptance.

I have come to understand I do not have to submit to other's ways nor to their criticism of my life.  I do not have to put the values, opinions, perspectives or religious/spritual beliefs & practices held by another human in front of my own. So what are my beliefs? I believe in the G-d of Israel. He alone is my provider and my salvation. In G-d, the Creator of the Universe, there is love and relationship.  I know HE loves me there is no doubt in my soul.  I also believe in kindness, forgiveness, encouraging others, gentleness, patience, understanding, compassion, and giving. These are the attributes G-d  is nourshing within my soul.

My soul for so long has cried for freedom. The freedom to be me; the me I was created to be. But I lost sight of that freedom and I dont even know where or when it was lost. Freedom has been rediscovered in ways I once was taught and ignorantly believed would lead me to be doomed spiritually and physically.  This is no longer the case. My soul is  free today.

My soul loves so many things in this world and finds positives in almost every situation.  My soul still faces the struggle for daily release from the chains of fear built from anger, judgment, lies, pain, rejection and other yet unrecognized factors (links).  However, now my soul chooses to dispel the fears rather than submit to them :).

Submit- oh that well abused word which brings slavery to those who only want to be loved and accepted.  At this point in my life, I no longer have the driven need nor desire to submit to another human being.  I do though submit my entire existance  to the ONE I accept as my salvation and provider.  His yoke (TORAH)  has brought me to FREEDOM.

This newly found freedom has opened up my eyes. Yes I was blind and now I can see. Freedom has also allowed me to hear without deafening outside noise.  This new vista I am at appears to be spectacular as I see so much on the horizon. Places  to visit, souls to connect with,  unending possibilities are ahead. The journey continues........................................